Trigger Warning: Mention of suicide ideation and of sexual Alters
Hey everyone. I wanted to introduce my current System members. In time, some of them may wish to write their own blog posts here, but for now they are all willing to let me reveal who they are, what their role is in the System and a little bit about them.
So I'll start off with me.
Adults
1. Sapphire (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Blue, Gemstone
Role: Host
Role: Protector
Age: Body age
Created: when the body was 9 years old
Favourite colour/s: Blue and Rose Gold
Favourite Activity/s: Art/craft and Gaming
Role Definition: My role as Host means I'm the one who Fronts the most often and I deal with day to day living.
A bit about me: My name is Sapphire. I am not the 'original', or first core personality, but I am the permanent Host of the System. The first core personality was called Linda and she integrated and fused in November of 2019 after collapsing emotionally and mentally. Originally I was a Fragment (See the post about Alter Roles and Terminology). I was created when Linda was 9 years old and my single role was the management of memories. I was an Alter to the original Gatekeeper.
I enjoy reading and listening to music and writing. I have plans to study psychology and specialise in Dissociative Disorders. I have a deep passion for helping to spread awareness, remove stigma and educate people on Dissociative Disorders, especially D.I.D. I also want to help people who have this disorder to better understand it and work towards healing, however that looks for the individual.
I have legally changed my name from Linda to Sapphire. As a System, we have unanimously agreed that, whatever happens, the body will always be known as Sapphire.
2. Sophia (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Divine Wisdom
Role: Gatekeeper/Primary Protector
Role: Sexual Protector
Role: Ex-Persecutor
Age: 14-24
Created: When Linda was 11 years old
Interesting fact: Sophia is a Goth. She is sassy and outspoken and isn't afraid to tell people what she thinks. She often doesn't care about consequences. She's the first to front if someone is giving any of us a hard time. She doesn't take crap from anyone.
Favourite colours: Black and purple
Role Definition: Gatekeeper: To manage switching, fronting and internal disputes. She also has access to all the memories, although she doesn't dig around in them unless she has to. She is usually the one to welcome new Alters to the System and help them understand their role. She can also put Alters into a state of dormancy if necessary as well if a need arises and can prevent Alters from fronting in some instances.
3. The Watcher (Non-Binary)
Role: Chronicler
Age: Ageless
Created: Unknown
Interesting Fact: No-one in the System has ever seen their face
Role Definition: Not fully known but possibly to document important events in our life.
4. Cal (He/Him)
Meaning of name: Devotion
Role: Protector
Role: Unknown
Age: 35
Created: Unknown
5. Sally (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Princess
Role: Trauma Holder
Role: Fragment
Age: 23
Created: 1999
A Fragment is a partially formed Alter who usually holds a single memory, trauma or experience
6. Saph (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Shortened version of Sapphire
Role: Unknown
Age: Same as body
Created: Unknown
7. Dana (She/Her)
Meaning of name: God is my judge
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: Slider: Little to body age
Created: 2022
8. Hazel (She/Her)
Meaning of name: The Hazel Tree
Role: Internal Helper/Soother
Age: 24
Created: 2022
9. Seraphina (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Fiery/Burning
Role: Persecutor
Age: Same as body
Created: 2022
10. Halo (They/Them)
Meaning of name:
Role: Sexual Protector
Age: 24
Re-Created: 2022
Halo is a fusion of Nadia and Klarissa
11. Natalie (She/Her)
Meaning of the name: Birth of the Lord
Role: Care-Giver/Internal Soother
Age: 35
Created: 1991
12. Osiris (They/Them)
Meaning of name: Egyptian lord of the underworld/death
Role: Trauma Watcher
Age: Ageless
Created: 1976
13. Ghost (She/Her)
Role: Trauma Holder
Role: Anaesthetist
Role: Fragment
Age: Ageless
Created: Unknown
Interesting fact: Ghost is a ghost in the System and chooses not to talk.
14. Demoness (Ness for short) (She/Her)
Role: Trauma Holder
Role: Persecutor
Age: Around 18-24
Created: Mid teens
15. Astra (She/Her)
Role: Soother/Comforter
Species: Human/Cat hybrid
Age: Unknown
Created: 2022
Interesting fact: Alters can be anything that the mind can create, whether that is human, non-human, or anything in-between. Whatever the person needed at the time the Alter was created. At the time Astra was created, we were in deep distress and needed soothing comfort, and we always found our actual cat comforting; the sound of her purring and the softness of her fur, so our mind created a cat-like Alter to be that comfort within our mind.
16. Shadow (She/Her)
Role: Unknown
Age: Unknown
Created: Unknown
17. Onyx (He/Him)
Role: Unknown
Age: Unknown
Created: Unknown
19. Mara (She/Her)
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: Young Adult
Created: 2022
20. Dark (They/Them)
Role: Trauma Holder
Role: Protector
Age: Unknown
Created: Unknown
Interesting fact: Dark has the ability to shape-shift inner world to a mist form, which can shield Alters from danger or hide their activities from prying eyes.
Middles/Teens
21. Jake (He/Him)
Meaning of name: Supplanter
Role: Ex-Persecutor
Role: Protector
Age: 16/Ageless
Created: 2020
Favourite Colour: Black
Favourite Activity: Gaming
Interesting Fact: Emo/Grunge. Has strong London/Essex accent (we've never been to Essex!)
Role Definition: A Persecutor is an Alter who believes that the only way to keep the System safe is to harm the body, the Alters or other people (in some cases). They often carry so much trauma that they simply want the pain to end, and they have unhealthy coping mechanisms. Sometimes, they believe that if they can cause the Host or other Alters to fear them more than the original abuser, then there will be no cause to fear the abuser at all. Generally, if Persecutors can learn healthier ways to manage their pain, they can go on to become strong Protectors. Jake is in in this process of becoming a Protector.
22. JC (She/Her)
Role: Care-Giver
Role: Protector
Age: 16
Created: 2020
Interesting Fact: Jake’s twin
Interesting Fact: Likes Steampunk Goth
Note: To be a twin of an Alter, generally it just means they were created at the exact same time.
Role Definition: Care-Givers are Alters who provide a much needed service of soothing Alters inside the System. Alters are usually very traumatised and upset and can have panic attacks on a regular basis. Care-givers have the ability to be very calm and soothing and rational, which is absolutely essential.
23. Jason (He/Him)
Meaning of name: Gift of Healing
Role: Protector
Age: 18
Created: When the body was 11 years old
24. Neasha-Leigh (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Neasha: Just. Leigh: Meadow
Role: Protector
Age: 14
Created: 1987
Interesting Fact: Avid gamer. Our gaming handle is Neashaleigh for most games.
25. Charlie (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Free man
Role: Innocent
Age: 15
Created: 2019
Role Definition: Sometimes an Innocent Alter is formed to preserve a section of life from trauma. This carefree Alter should be nurtured and not allowed to share in the horrors of trauma that the other Alters have had to witness.
26. Candy (She/Her)
Role: Innocent
Age: 14-15
Created: Unknown
Littles
27. Faya (They/Them)
Meaning of name:
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 6/Ageless
Re-Created: 2022
Interesting Fact: Faya is a fusion of Feury and Maddie
28. Terra (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Earth
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 11-13
Created: 1987-1988
29. Nina (She/Her)
Meaning of name: God was gracious
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 4
Created: 1979/80
30. Melanie (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Blackness
Role: Trauma Holder
Role: Persecutor
Age: 13
Created: 2021
31. Libby (She/Her)
Meaning of name: My heart
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 7
Created: When Linda was 7 years old
Interesting Fact: Until June 2021, Libby was selectively deaf and unable to talk due to trauma.
32. Mystique (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Air of mystery
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 11
Created: When Linda was 7 years old
33. Pippy (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Horse lover
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 7
Created: When Linda was 7 years old
34. Elsie (She/Her)
Meaning of name: God is perfection
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 8
Created: When Linda was around 7 years old
35. Esther (She/Her)
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: Unknown
Created: Unknown
36. Emily (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Rival
Role:
Age: 2
Created:
37. Grace (She/Her)
Role: Innocent
Age: 3
Created: 2020
Interesting fact: Twin to Hope
38. Hope (She/Her)
Role: Innocent
Age: 3
Created: 2020
Interesting fact: Twin to Grace
39. Nareena (She/Her)
Meaning of name: Sea Princess
Role: Trauma Holder
Role: Fragment
Age: 12
Created:
40. Emily (She/Her)
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 2-4
Created: Unknown
41. Alec (She/Her)
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 4-6
Created: Unknown
Interesting fact: Alec is mute
42. Precious (She/Her)
Role: Trauma Holder
Age: 7-12
Created: Unknown
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